From everything to nothing

I've been waiting so long, keep this thing, and you ruined everything. Maybe I just trying too hard. I feel like being unrespected. Hell yeah, thanks, P. This is kinda GREAT feedback. I believe in someone's word "He's not in to me anymore." Yeah I think so babe. But why I still wondering of him? Why? I'm tired of this crazy things. Someone help me :( I'm too blind to run. I'm too dumb to choose. And I'm too insane to being normal.

What if?

What if there was no light.
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme?
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong?
And no poem or song..
Could put right what I got wrong,
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
Let's take a breath jump over the side.
How can you know it when you don't even try?

Disgusting!

Well malam ini gue baru aja mengalami hal menjijikan. Mau tau apa? Geez, oke gini, tadi Galih, indra, agus, and alan main ke rumah, kita berniat minjem vcd ke video ezy. Tapi harus register dulu, yaudah gue isi form nya. Di situ ada nama, alamat, no hape, no passport. Ya gue sih biasa aja isi dengan jujur karena video ezy udah punya nama besar dan g mungkin main-main. Dan ternyata, malam ini gue dapet sms dari no 017------- bertulisan "hai.. kamu dhini duta lestari?" gue bales "ni sapa?" dan ada balasan "ini abang yang di kedai video tadi. boleh berkenala?" HELL NO! Gue ga bales! Males banget. GEEZ! Gue harus komplain, tapi oh yeah gue g tau gimana harus ngejelasin ke nyokap.

How do you feel?

How do you feel when you lose someone you can't replace? What will you do?
How do you feel when the one you love go to another? What will you do?
How do you feel when the one you love want you to find for another? What will you do?
How do you feel when you know you will lose him forever more? What will you do?
How do you feel if you have so many questions about this and you can't answer 'em? What will you do?


Life goes harder and harder. Me? More and more weak everyday. I have so many questions in my mind that I can't answer. I really wanted to go back to the past, and make this things clear. So, this situation won't be happen. I wish I could turn back the time :(

Today's words.

"When you try your best but you don't succeed. When you get what you want but not what you need. When you feel so tired but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face. When you lose something you can't replace. When you love someone but it goes to waste. Could it be worse? And high up above earth or down below. When you're too in love to let it go. But if you never try you'll never know. Just what you're worth."

Coldplay - Fix you

Happy Belated Birthday INDONESIA

Today, August 17th 2009, is an Independence day of the Indonesians.I went to Wisma Duta (mine, kidding). The main plan is just join aubade, not the ceremony. Unfortunately, my lovely friends didn't come, SO the aubade group had to join the ceremony, great!. Although it was a quite short ceremony, but ceremony ya tetep aja ceremony. At the sudden end of the ceremony, the MC said "Pasuka aubade akan menyanyikan 5 buah lagu...bla...blaaa" we ran to the stage, it's a kinda silly thing we did. Before that, bu Aan gave us a lil Indonesian flag, I thought we will hold it and move it for all the song, but the fact wasn't like what I thought. We just did it in a very last time of our last song. Cool!
After our song, they gave us our VERY DELICIOUS lunch, Sari Ratu. And enjoyed acara-acara lain such as breakpong (ka fitri n kokom), yuda dkk, inul (yg gesha tunggu2), etc. The most interesting show is when I sang 5 songs. LOL (not funny).
From Wisma Duta, Aubade team went to KLCC for buat bodoh. And it works. (I really don't understand with "It works" thing.) Seharus nya kita serombongan, but because me, thevet, jasmine, and galih had to wait for takim and udin, so we miss rombongan depan. Karena terlalu capek, so we decided to took taxi. Setelah lama menunggu rombongan penjelajah yang lama, akhir nya kami face them dan oke I got it, hannan was on her very bad mood, she was jealous at somenone. Then we decided to move away, then went to BURGER KING and had our second lunch. Lagi2 kita punya masalah dengan pembagian kewajiban, alias bayar. Waktu di nando's Jasmine yang harus pusing, tadi giliran thevet, who's next?
Sampai sudah pada prosesi pemulangan. Infront of the twin tower, we wait for a big size taxi that fit for us, 7 persons. We wait for an ORDINARY big taxi, not an executive one. Giliran lagi nunggu g lewat2, pas lagi foto, we always missed it. Finally, we dicided to took the executive big blue taxi. It cost MYR 30. Quite expensive for student rate. (yang penting sampe rumah) When we arrived di demol, a heavy rain felt down, membasahi KL and my body. I ran to KTM station to get the train as fast as I could. Hujan semakin deras dan percuma itu station ada atap nya karena air nya tetep aja masuk, and the train was DELAYED! My big thanks to KTMB. Ok sampe di situ aja cerita perjalanan saya hari ini.

Intinya...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED COUNTRY
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KLCC (takim, Aul, thevet, galih, Jasmine, ME!)Dhini juga pengukuhan, emang paskibra aja. :p

Love is Lame

I have a quite big question in my own. Why girls love to be in love although they were hurt that much by the boys? And I'm one of those girls. I'm an over sensitive person who lives in a rude life. I have to survive, but I don't know how. Everybody need someone beside 'em, esspecially girls, am I rite? Maybe I am the one who always have a big problem with my love life. Difficult for me to show if I'm suffer. I'm not good in words. My conclusion is Love isn't easy. In this case, I give up!

Second Home

This is my second blog. Forget about my first ruined unimportant blog. I'm trying to make the real blog like blogger do. Okay enjoy ;)